I am completely overwhelmed by the number of readers I have. Man. You guys must be really bored to read my drivel. Heh. No, honestly, I'm flattered. The thing is, these thoughts are always in my brain. So to me, they're old, tired opinions. But I forget that I don't share them out loud very often, so to you it's not old. And I'm grateful for your audience.
So...the teenager is on Facebook. And honestly, I want to hide this place from him. I adore him, and someday, he can know everything I think and feel about parenting him. But right now, at fourteen years old...please God, no. Not yet. Our relationship needs to be strong. He needs to think that I'm strong and unwavering because that equals security.
I can never remember my mother being weak. Ever. She's told me as an adult that she had her moments. That she thought we'd always remember her laying on the couch because she was always so tired (and often pregnant!). I don't remember that. The only times I remember her laying on the couch is when we played "barber shop." And I LOVE that. I love that my parents were a portrait of strength and security. And although they were fallible, I didn't know it. I want that for Cole, too.
Aaaand, while I'm on the subject, just so you know, I hesistated accepting Cole's friend request. (Shhh...don't tell him that either). I teased him for a few weeks about him friending everyone but me, but I didn't really mean it. I want to be his friend, but I don't want him to be mine. It's like having your teenager in your living room in the middle of all your adult conversations. Annoying.
So, mum's the word. I'll keep on keeping on and when I post a link from this blog to Facebook, I'll hide it from him. I thank you, dear readers, for helping keep my secret.
Besides, I'm probably flattering myself. I'm guessing he thinks I'm old, and boring. And could give a rip about my thoughts or opinions or my blog. And if that helps keep him away from here, super. Although someone should probably let him know how young, and hip I am. What UP, Johnny?!
Thanks for working through that little dilemma with me!