Except for today. And part of yesterday. And the day before. I'm in a funk.
I thought I wouldn't blog about it...in order to keep my blog fresh and happy. But who am I kidding? What's fresh and happy all the time?
Yesterday I spent a couple hours raking the backyard and this morning I am watching the green disappear beneath the new leaves falling...down. I have a problem with fall. I know a lot of people find energy in the chilly weather and peace in the beauty of the season. So do I. But it's SO SHORT. It's like a week or two of beauty and then it all dies for the winter. And I detest winter. So despite the beauty and the fresh air, I have a hard time truly enjoying it.
All around me, I see chaos and negativity. We all know the economy is in major crisis. Except for grocery prices, nothing has really changed for me. The biggest financial gurus in the country (the world?) are exclaiming that this is this is the worst financial crisis since the great depression, and I believe them. Although on a daily basis, I refuse to go there. (Refer to paragraph 1). I'm young and healthy and willing to work hard, so I believe there is hope in my future. But all around me people keep talking about it and it's causes, and it's potential effects, and it's hard not to get get sucked into that.
Election 2008. Here's my new thought. When you're watching your favorite team play football on Sundays (another reason to love fall!) there's much anticipation. You don your jersey, make snacks, have friends over. One team or another may be up during the course of the game, causing anticipation and some anxiety for fans. And then, in about three hours' time, it's over. One team wins and one team loses. In this election, however, three hours equals about two years. Are you kidding me? Will someone win this stinkin' game so we can go on with our lives? I know all this time is well spent and important, but I'm SO SICK of watching the game. The fans are rude, the players have terrible sportsmanship, and I'm tired of the negative energy. Football is a terrible analogy. I know that this is an enormously important election and I'm ready for the country to be led by someone other than our current Commander-in-Chief. But seriously...is it November 4th yet?
This is the sign over my door. I put it there so that every time my boys and I leave the house it's a reminder. It feels like every time I turn on the news, this isn't important. And, to me, it's so important that I put it up right over my front door. So everything going on right now is wearing me down. For the past few days, I'm finding that as hard as I try, I can't refocus on the positive. So, for today, that is my mission. Find only things that make me laugh. Work on loving everyone around me. Pray for more kindness in the world. Live by the Golden Rule and this:
"...serve one another in love. The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."" [Galatians 5:13-14] Read the whole chapter here, it'll be worth your time!
So I'm off. I'm going to clean my kitchen, let Matty take my blood pressure (he's been begging for my blogging arm the entire time I've been writing this) and head out to rake the new leaves that have fallen. And try to remember that my life is amazing, and I have really nothing to complain about. Have a blessed day...be nice!